I looked in the mirror today and wanted to cry because I can’t stop doing this to myself


I have voices in my head telling me I’m not worth it, no one cares, I’m fat, not good enough.. I have no future, I’ll never be both physically and mentally healthy and I’ll never be truly happy. There’s no use in trying..

The voices are getting worse and I can’t make them go away.

anorexia bipolar

Sometimes I’m sad…
And sometimes, I’m too tired to hide it.

I am conflicted

I look in the mirror and I see someone who is not me. She looks bony and tired.. At first. Then I start to notice all the spots that have substance to them and I notice I am huge. I look at the scale and the number is better every day.. But I’ve been lighter so at the moment I’m not good enough. I feel like I’m losing myself and I’m trying to hide it from my friends and family but eventually things will come out into the open.

I am aware. I know my body cannot sustain this lifestyle.

I am stuck


"I don’t deserve you but god, I want to. I want to spend the rest of my life trying to deserve you."
- (via gwavyyy)

(via emxlyisdead)

It’s not that I look down upon meat and dairy consumers.. I’m just disappointed and disgusted by their ignorance and lack of compassion for the world they live in.