I’m moving back home so I can get help.. My parents are being really good about it. If I lose anymore weight I’ll be in the hospital
Anonymous asked: Have a nice day. And sweet dreams.
I love sweet anons… Feel free to talk to me as much as you want!!
Anonymous asked: how are you? i hope youre well you seem like someone who deserves to be X
Awe thanks.. But I feel really sad, and I feel like I deserve to be..
I’m trying really hard not to hurt myself..
My boyfriend dumped me when I was in the middle of a depressive episode… But I deserved it
I talked to my doctor today.. I’m going back into outpatient and starting my meds again.
I feel like two kinds of failures. I failed at my eating disorders, because for once in my life I’m not letting myself die or get hospitalized or incapable of doing anything normal because of them. And I failed at recovering.. Even though I never wanted recovery, I didn’t want to have to go back into any sort of treatment.. Outpatient or inpatient.
I really want to call my doctor and say fuuuuck you and lose ten lbs.. But I can’t. I have to go to work and school. I have to pay my rent and take care of the dogs I work with. I have to show my family I’m strong enough to handle this.